a note to dad;


dear papa,

how come lately i cant feel you anymore. and its been a while since you came into my dreams. where are you now? and where have you been?

for the past few days we went back to places where we used to have dinner together as a family, looking at the food you used to eat and love to eat makes me miss you even more. walking into your favourite supermaket makes me think of how much fun we used to have when we shop for groceries together. but now, everything have change. i cant bring myself to do these all by myself. i still cant accept the fact that you're no longer with us.


i miss the times when i call your name.
i miss the times when i can hear your voice.
i miss the times when i dial your mobile number.
i miss the times when we watching the news together.
i miss the times when we eat together.
i miss the times when i could share a new joke with you.

i just miss everything about you.

and today, your sister called, telling us how much she really miss you. hearing so much about you makes mama teared alone in the room. i tried to hold back my tears, telling myself not to make mama even more upset . but i know all these while she has been real brave and telling us to be strong too. no matter how strong i can be, that will only happen in the day. and when the night falls in, i became so weak and i could only cry alone in the room and started thinking back how much i regret for the things i did not do when you're around.

christmas is coming. and i've got no idea what kind of mood i have to bring with me to celebrate this festival without you. cos it's the first christmas without you and i feel real terrible inside. to be honest, im not looking forward to any of these days, not even the new years and my birthday. suddenly i just lost all the excitement for celebrations.

everyday, everyone in the family miss you. did you miss us too?

if only i could meet you again in my dreams ....

happened to spot this shop. interesting huh.

drove mom out for dinner and at the same time treating myself a good dinner. a reward for being so hardworking on a SUN-DAY. mind you im actually staying home on a weekend doing nothing but STUDYING.

gave school a missed. did nothing but study. what a boring friday.
i've been trying to tell myself to concentrate on studying. ended up i procrastinate so much that i had nothing in my brain right now. im so gonna screwed up my papers next week.

on a saturday. 31 nov '09

so on the night of halloween.

first thing early in the morning. i received so many morning calls telling me it time i should head out to join in the fun. nah~ i never like morning calls. so drove the usuals over to my place first and headed down to meet the girls at clarke quey.

settled down over at yellow jellow. before we moved to look around for more weird looking people. wasted. didnt get the chance to snap picture with the "halloween" people. saw quite a number of interesting dress-er.

lady gaga, michael jackson, sexy bunny, rainbow rocker etc. and my favourite was the one below.

we had 3 groups of friends that night. and that makes a big group of us.

made new friends and had so much fun on the night of halloween.

so what's next for halloween next year?

met the rest over at cck for our halloween trip. for the first time 927 bus queue was so much longer than 302 bus queue. and the bus ride to night safari was horrible which almost made me faint the moment i step onto the ground of night safari.

we tried to spot grace's bro - leonard throughout the whole waiting time and finally we saw someone that resemble him. (the picture above) and so we tried to convince ourselve that this one confirm is leonard by having to shout his name out so loud until this red face monster was so sick of it that he tried pointing to us where leonard was. ahh~ so much of disturbing his red face monster.

and so we had so much fun that night. ok minus away the hours of waiting and queuing. ok at least the queuing isnt that bad when we get to see people getting the scare of their lives and some self-entertaining. the spooky tram was the highlight of the night.

for once ... halloween was so fun.